Friday, 3 April 2015

You're only as good as...

It's an erroneous belief but it's deep ingrained into me. It's the idea that you are only as good as your last piece of work. So I made another card. One that didn't push my boundaries of comfort. One that isn't so rough.

Is it wrong of me to have this belief? Oh yes.

I know where I picked it up. The first job I had, at a photography studio. It was like a mantra there. I snorted with derision whenever I heard it. I knew that I could have a bad day, then a good day, then another bad day. If I produced something crap, it was not indicative that it was my best work. I knew that. Yet when I left that awful place, I discovered I had carried that ridiculous mantra with me.

I could fight this. Learn to change it. Live with the discomfort. But it barely scratches the surface of my insecure beliefs. I have bigger, more unhelpful voices in my head to address first. This one I give into and then laugh at my own ridiculousness.

After all. I'm not alone.

Am I? ;)


alexa said...

Nope :). Beliefs are always worth questioning! No-one judges a composer or an artist on their final work. Your card is clean and bright and just lovely. I think your photographer's anxiety could safely be kicked into touch now!

Michelle said...

Ooh, pretty! And no, you are not alone in having insecurities to address. ;-)

Monika Reeck said...

may I have this for my birthday Paul
I love purple and this is perfect card for me who lovey purple LOL..wish you are okay...I made lately card with manly Image ..maybe you like to visiting me back Paul...miss your words :)
Happy easter for you and Nick..
Crafty hugs

Michele said...

Such a pretty card - beautiful colours x

Neet said...

What a meaningful post that is - and no, you are not alone. That has given me a lot of food for thought.
On the artistic side I love your card. The colours are so powerful and send a real strong message out against that stark white background.
Hugs, Neet xx
ps what is the Roy B Giv selection (red, orange, yellow, blue green ..?

Anne Jagger said...

It's beautiful Paul, love the colours of the flower. I agree totally with your view. A x